ANXIETY
you fill up the room
disguised
like carbon monoxide
until you find me
i cannot hide
and then air
it doesn’t exist
my lungs are filled
with the sightless gas of you.
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PTSD
are you a snake?
your venom seems to be in my blood
but you never seem to rattle
before i shake
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when you arrive
i don’t exist
an unforeseen visitor of my unbecoming past
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DEPRESSION
you live in me
but i don’t know where you are
you’re like a radio station
when you’re tuned up you get me down
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someone asked me to write a poem about happiness the other day
well its hard to write about something when you live in a foreign place
five years its been. five years of the same. five years where I’d rather be asleep.
not rather. been.
rather than live with the reality of what I’m in
we had one good summer
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I sent you away
with a cd
no one would love you like I would
a band of horses running you out
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HOPE
when the sun sets
it always has to rise
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what everyone looks at
is what they think they see
the outside
is the lie that tells us the truth on the inside
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there is no light
at the end of the tunnel
the light is there the whole way
we just don’t see it
to look is not to see 